My life is really boring and lifeless now to the extent I can sum it up with just 3 words. Work & eat. So basically all these while, I've been either working or going cafe hopping, that's it. I always use my off days to go cafe hopping since it's my hobby heheheh!

Here are some of the recent cafes I have just been to!

Lady M! My favourite cafe of all time because they are just that extremely good although the price must maintain ah! Average $9 a piece sia wahpiang!

Strangers reunion! Okok lah I would say hahahah!

I am cafe! Their rainbow crepe (the above picture) is GOOODDDDDD!!!! ^__~

W39 bistro and bakery cafe! Not bad, cakes are yummy and the prices are affordable and worth it! ^__^

Boufe boutique cafe! The ambience here is absolutely beautiful and I would highly recommend their desserts cuz they're really deliciousssssss!!!! XD Oh btw, I find this place really hard to locate so I suggest that if you'd like to visit this place, take a cab from redhill instead hahahah! Oh and yes, I suggest not to go at night too because it's really creepy and spooky during the night! :( Best is going in the early afternoon! ^__~

Lynn's cakes and coffee! Yes their cakes are really good, worth trying! ^__~

Ciel patisserie! They have quite a variety of cakes to choose from and their cakes are really delicious and highly-raved! Would recommend this cafe too heheh! XD

Brew maison, one of my favourite cafes as well!!!!!! XD <3 Super mega good place to study and have a peaceful meal. Their interior is extravagantly beautiful, the cafe is exceptionally large, it's always super peaceful and they provide free wifi as well!!! Super love this cafe so much! Oh yeah, you must try their fries with curry sauce okay! I highly recommend that heheheheh! ^__~

NEXT...

I'm currently waiting for poly to start and no words can describe the anticipation and excitement I have for school to start because I've been slacking for the past 4+ months doing the same old routine (work & eat), and I swear it's really pathetic and depressing. I really wish for school to start soon as I'll be able to experience a new school life, make new friends, study in the course I've always dreamt of studying in, so on and so forth. I really kinda miss secondary school now.... hais......

You may be thinking i'm being retarded by complaining about my long 6 months of holiday but let me tell you, it's NOT totally fun at all. Right now all i'm feeling is "sibei mega sian" i swear. Life just sucks to me. It's okay, i'll be starting school soon in less than a month too though hahah! I should like shut up and appreciate my last moments of sweet holidays RIGHT?! Oh yeah hahahah! XD

TO ADD ON....

Something very very very tragic, depressing, heart-breaking, and despondent just happened recently too. You guys should more or less know what it is. Yes, the passing away of our nation's great leader, Mr Lee Kuan Yew.

Till now even though the state funeral has already ended, I still can't swallow up this entire sudden, random and shocking news. I'm literally still in a state of disbelief and denial. It's like I woke up one day to see everyone talking and spreading the news of Mr Lee's death. I was like what on earth, what the shit, what the hell? It was all just too sudden...

My family and I went to queue to pay our respects to Mr Lee too on the 26th March at the parliament house. When I entered the parliament house, I could literally feel the immense sadness, anguish and grief. My mum was crying while my dad just had that stern look like he always had. But when we walked out of the parliament house, I saw my dad reaching out his hand to touch a pole while closing his eyes. That moment impacted me so much because I have never seen my dad cried before, just once when my grandfather passed away 9 years ago.

No words could describe how distressed I felt...

I have never seen or met Mr Lee in my life before but my dad has always told me wonderful and admirable stories about him, making him mine and my dad's idol and hero.

My dad has lived under his generation from the day he became the first prime minister of Singapore, till the day of his death and I know that whatever my dad said about him is true since he himself has experienced it first-hand and the fact that my dad was a Malaysian, has lived in Malaysia before and could tell and compare the distinct differences between Singapore and Malaysia. (If you're a Chinese living in Malaysia, you'll understand fully) My dad respected Mr Lee the most in his entire life.

Without Mr Lee, we wouldn't be able to drink water from our taps, we wouldn't be able to fearlessly stay outside during the night, most of us would wake up without a shelter above our heads, racism would be everywhere, and to just summarise his great deeds, I wouldn't be where I am right now. That's how much of a respectable, upright, humble, righteous and admirable person Mr Lee is. (I'm merely stating facts and not even trying to suck up to him or even worship him if you actually thought that ignorant way. He is that great of a person.)

Yes true, he may have made mistakes, made wrong decisions but thing is, isn't he just human as well? He ain't God for your information lol. We all make mistakes, we aren't created to be perfect. There's no such thing as perfect. No matter what he has done, he still made Singapore into such a successful and prosperous country. Is there anything more to ask for? I honestly think we are just taking too much for granted. When we're given an inch, we ask for a yard and that's why we are infamously known for only knowing how to complain.

Dear Mr Lee, thank you so much for everything. I am so glad to be born in a country raised under your leadership. Thanks to you and your capability, Singapore has become a first world country, a metropolis and the beautiful and remarkable state it is in right now.

I am fortunate enough to be born in a generation where I wouldn't have to worry about all these problems and difficulties which my parents and relatives had to go through, and that's all the more why i'm so thankful and appreciative to be a Singaporean.

Seriously, don't be like an Amos Yee. (Read the article below to find out more)

https://sg.news.yahoo.com/police-report-lodged-over-amos-yee-anti-lee-kuan-yew-video-063152918.html

And here is a wonderful "educational" video of him raving about his own self-righteous, imbecile, ignorant, moronic, doltish and just simply cock up opinions of his own personal mindset towards Lee Kuan Yew.

My personal response: Wah you really bueysai sia steady not scared of death sia wah sibei brave I salute you totally eh, very brave, very courageous, very outspoken, very open-minded, but hor this one too much already sia just diam diam lah hor go study lah wahpiang eh.

Seriously you have so much complains and problems you have towards the system here in Singapore when you can't even settle the problem of your own hair which looks like pubic hair for goodness sake. The fact that you're the same age as me makes me feel utterly aghast and disgusted. You need help bruh but I think no one can help you already, even Jesus can't help you lol.

I have never felt so aggravated for watching a video in my life before I swear. Really feel like shooting him with an AK47 or machine gun zzzzz. Just go be a farmer and plant your crops lah hor jackass. -____-''' Wah cannot I really damn angry!!!! >:(

I saw this comment made at this video on youtube which I fully agree and found it super relevant. It says:

By: musicmakespeace
good points of what, really? we're not that dumb to know that some other countries living expenses/lifestyle are much better than singapore is. I know this because multiple friends of mine experienced it, not google. But do you both know the roots of how people actually go overseas for business/studies and to ensure security safety of our nation? Back then when you both in your fathers ball-sack, Lee kuan yew worked his ass off from 3rd world country to the 1st world country to make our nation recognizable globally thus making other countries (like USA) take note of us.  If we were still stuck in the 3rd world country, do you honestly think other countries will want to invest in part of us? we all will be spoon-fed by other countries big time and be fully dependent on Malaysia... you want us to be Malaysia's bitch? no one in the right mind would want that And he mentioned that what does the government do with all our money and stuff instead of "spending it on us".... well look around, you both cannot be that blind right? LRT, esplanade, marina barrage, hospitals in jurong, buildings in town, upcoming underground train (idk what it is called) etc etc. They are trying to make our country a luxurious place to live in and to make an easy life of transportation. One of the hardest thing to counter here is traffic, so they tried to build in underground railways and stuff to improve our travels. This is no-brainer. And i dont fking get it about his talk on healthcare, the price of healthcare in polyclinics are freaking cheap imo. There's also insurance for health... wtf is he talking about? is he that blind by hatred? Can't afford a simple healthcare, then gtfo .. simple. You both complaint about this stuff... what makes you think other countries are different? Veterans in Singapore assist lee kuan yew during its time to serve a better nation for this current generation and to the future. You both born here (i assume) with already food deliver on a silver platter and yet both of you whine and bitch about it. for what? I just want to live a happy life... i dont feel one bit miserable, if you both feel upset over stuff that shouldn't even worth of getting upset about, it is no wonder both of your life are miserable. nothing can make you guys happy then leave.. simple. Go to Malaysia, both of your problems solved. You guys can whine all you want there

I know this argument is pretty redundant since we are all subjected to our own opinions but aiya I just feel like releasing all my feelings onto this post. Seriously, this has been the most emotional week for me...

What will become of Singapore in future and in time to come?

Disclaimer: I personally think that this blog post isn't really gonna help anyone who is aiming to go to a JC because my O level results suck to whoever is aiming to go to a JC LOL, but if you want to find some additional comfort or encouragement, you can continue reading la.
I didn't score exactly very well, just average in my most humble opinion.

Lastly, to any of you guys reading and are feeling the same way as I did, just know that you're not alone. Trust me, once you have read my post you will see yourself in another light HAHA! 

LETS START SHALL WE?!

Before

Before I took my O levels, I haven't had a single clue of how it felt like, and I was constantly afraid and nervous because this was my very first major exam (excluding PSLE duh, like who cares about PSLE man hahah!) No one has ever assured me that I'd be able to do well for my O levels, given my current and all-time results.

It's like whenever I ask someone who has done well for their O levels, they're either 24/7 smart or smart for their O levels year. Unfortunately for me, I'm 24/7 dumb and bimbotic lol, and during my O level year, my results were constantly like shit. When I say it's shit, it.is.shit. I don't go around blowing my trumpet or act one humble and say my results are shit when it's pretty decent haha. 

*IMPORTANT*
If you ever feel down, lost, despondent, insecure, etc I can assure you the 7 things that I list below about myself will make you feel better about yourself HAHA! I wish we could bet in real life like a cup of Starbucks or something. Trust me, those who know me gave in to me.

1) I have already aimed for a baking course ever since I was 11, and am really determined to get into Temasek Polytechnic. This means that I cannot suka suka just choose whatever available course I am eligible for based on my O level results. I HAVE to work hard and make sure I score below the cut off point for the course I want.

2) I didn't take higher mother tongue. This means that I have 1 less alternative to minus my cut off point.

3) Ever since I started sec 3, I have NEVER attained a single distinction for any of the 7 subject combinations I took. (And sadly not even for O levels. This must be fate. I'm probably destined to not attain a single distinction at all in my life sigh life is tough) 

4) I did not apply for DPA at all, which means that I'll have to solely and purely use my raw marks to get into my desired course.

5) I am from a neighbourhood school, Hillgrove secondary school, and I believe most of you guys have not heard of this school LOL! Furthermore, I scored an aggregate point of 200 for PSLE HAHAH and I'd have to compete with schools that have a min PSLE requirement of 240 and above for express stream ZZZZZ wah I kenut sia all the high IQs.

6) Compared to most courses where intake is about 100 plus, the course I am aiming for only takes in 55 people. :):):)))))))))) Stress level increase x100.

7) I think after reading this, a lot of you guys will be like "okie I shall not complain anymore, this gurl is beyond salvation".

I got a D7 for my CCA. YES, I FAILED MY DAMN CCA YO. This means that the only saving grace that I had is G O N E. I have 0 alternatives to save me or help minus my cut off point now. :D This also means that I'd have to solely and purely rely on my own "low" IQ to get into my desired course. Even if I didn't score well for O levels and I didn't apply for DPA, if I did well for my CCA I still can appeal and use my CCA to save me sia, but NOPE. 0 hope for me liaoz.

(I think most of you might have found some new hope in yourself after reading all of these and I sincerely hope that you do hahahah!) 

So let's talk about my results from sec 1 all the way till sec 4. I'm just gonna openly show you my results to show you guys how shitty my results were and cuz it doesn't really matter to me hahahah!

Sec 1

Sec 4

You must be wondering like wow I must have been quite smart during prelims to reach a class position of 9/40. Let me prove you wrong, totally NOT AT ALL. My score was |L1R4: 19| & |L1R5: 24| LOL! So you can actually see or feel how demoralised I must have felt especially considering that it was my prelims, my final exam before I take my O levels. Despite me studying so hard (yes, I really tried my best to study hard and did my prelims like it was my O levels), and yet I still scored like shit.  The only good thing on my report slip was that my class position was the best so far ever since I stepped into Sec sch LOL!  P.s. My results actually look quite nice one but my CCA grade just had to ruin it all. Screw CCA pffft.

So as you can see, my results were constantly like shit. The worst thing is, I DID study.

In addition, since sec 1 to sec 4, my class position has always been 20+/40. My best class position was 9/40 (during sec 4 prelims) My worst class position was 33/40.

I felt extremely hopeless and dejected. I studied so damn hard throughout the entire year and my results continued to stay stagnant, literally not much of an improvement at all. Even though there were slight improvements, it was still not enough for me to enter my desired course. I swear I studied like hell, but it felt like no matter how much I study, it's never enough and this feeling just sucks so much. I just wished for it to end, because it felt like an eternity. And well, to be honest, I spent half of that year playing and going out. I took my O level year very lightly, thus it's also my fault.

And have you guys realised that not only do I suck so badly in science, likewise my maths too. If you noticed, throughout my sec school life, my maths is either a fail or a C. I've only gotten a B4 once during sec 2 CA2 and it was my best maths results hahah! 

Nevermind leh, I believe most of you should know how hard it is to get a distinction for English and maths due to the annoying bell curve and geniuses around right????? NEVERMIND LEH, fail English or maths really GG.COM NO JOKE, you won't even be able to get into any legit courses. It's like the end LOL!

After seeing my prelim results and knowing how much I sucked in science and maths,

CAN YOU FULLY FEEL ME NOW?!?!?!?!? T.T

I had to cram everything that I've learned throughout my entire secondary school life a month before O levels (cuz that's when I started to study LOL) and I must say that it was pure torture. I was even on the brink of tears and the verge of giving up.

So during the month of October, I went to a nearby Mac near my house every single day and stayed there for an average of 7-12 hours studying. #fierce #chiongster1998 HAHAHAH!

Finally, that fateful day arrived when I started my O levels officially. (Officially because before that you'd have already taken your Mother tongue O level paper which is the first paper, followed by your English Oral & listening comprehension)

And honestly speaking, it felt normal, just like your normal school exams. The only difference is that it has more tension to it since knowing the fact that you have only one chance and if you screw it up, ggwp (good game well played) only.

AFTER

HALLELUJAH, HALLELUJAH HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD I GOT STRAIGHT B3s and 1 FRIGGIN C5 LOL! XD AND EH WAH MY CHINESE ORAL DISTINCTION SIA HOLY MIRACLE OF GOD. I attained an L1R4 of 15 points weeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT MY B3 MUST MAINTAIN UH HAHAH!!! But anyway, it was exactly what I had aimed from the very beginning!!!!!! Thank God I swear!!!!!!  I was extremely flabbergasted with both happiness and sadness.  Happiness: My maths and science got a B3 sia omg holy!!! MY SCIENCE GUYS, THE ONE SUBJECT THAT I'VE ALWAYS FAILED SO BADLY LOLOLOL B3 SIA THIS IS A MIRACLE YOZXC123!!!!!!!! AND MY MATHS FOREVER C CAN GET B3 HOLY HAHAHAH! Sadness: I didn't attain a single distinction. T^T And my combined humanities had to ruin my pretty results hahahah! P.s. It may not be good to you, but it's good to me judging from my past academic results okay!  I'm pretty sure I'm destined to not attain a single distinction right after I start Secondary 3 I swear. Life is tough. I had extremely high hopes of getting a distinction for my POA & FNN but then screw the bell curve. Unfortunately for me, the bell curve was pretty high that year because the papers that year were really easy. Don't believe me, just take a look at the TYS (ten-year series) can already. Subjects especially E maths, Chemistry, and POA. Well, it's okay, because I'm really satisfied with my results! ^__~ Even my form teachers were like telling me, "we were quite surprised"  ANNOYING.

To add on with my joy, I even got an Edusave award for good progress!!!! XD
This just shows how much my teachers were amazed by me man you know my conduct in school is forever just "good" HAHA! 

Tips

- Do NOT be complacent. Even if you've passed your DPA/DSA or scored a distinction for your MT or CCA, DON'T EVER BE COMPLACENT. That's the worst thing you can ever do. Don't think that just because you passed your DPA/DSA, you've secured a place in poly or JC and you just have to score not as high as the others, means it's easy and you can simply not take your studies as seriously as you did before. Don't be an idiot and act all confident and complacent seriously. I'm saying this right now because I have a very good friend who was in this situation. And yes, she failed very badly and could only go to ITE despite passing her DPA. You know how depressing it is to see a good friend failing so miserably and you just can't do anything about it? Like fuck it man I should have forced her to study with me or just study legibly. So yeah, take my advice, continue to study and work hard even so like please.

- Have an aim in life. I have a lot of friends that don't know what they wanna do in life and they're just like, "don't know leh see my results first then choose". Like seriously, if you're gonna think that way then I think it'll be hard for you to work hard in your studies because you won't know what you're trying hard for.

(Below are tips just in my own opinion and only for the subject combinations I took of course hahahah!)

1) English

Well basically for English, just get your grammar and sentence structuring right and learn a wide range of vocabulary. How? Read. And in my opinion, I feel like you can't literally study languages because to me, if you know, means you know. It's something that should always be at the back of your head? Idk man, but I've heard people saying they read Harry Potter books to improve their English. Maybe you can try that HAHA! I ain't the best in English, but I'm not too shabby I believe...... Btw, I actually aimed for a distinction in English sia, But after doing my grammar editing, compo, and paper 2, I told myself, "I'll thank the lord and heavens if I can attain a B4" LOL! 

You know why??? 
Grammar editing, I got 5/10. The fact that I got full marks for my prelims and then 5/10 for O levels just made my self-esteem go down rapidly. 

Compo, if I remembered correctly, the question I chose was, "Describe a date with your family and why was it memorable?" Something like that. I only knew that I had to use tons of vocabulary in a "describe" question after I was done with my exam cuz that was when my friends told me and I DIDN'T SIA SHIT LOLOLOL! I didn't even describe that much also and it was a cliche kind of story and I'm like aiya sua.

Paper 2 damn difficult no joke. I can't even comprehend the questions lah like wtf sia steady. 
So yeah, me getting a B3 is considered a miracle too I think.

2) Elementary Maths

Just keep practising. Keep doing your ten-year series or other school's maths paper. During that month of torture before my O levels started, I did I think approximately more than 20 school's full maths paper. I redid the ones I did in school and asked for more papers from my friends who were from another class. Hardworking right I know HAHAHAH CHEY! :p (I know you will think this is utterly insane and you will never be this hardworking. But trust me I felt that way too but I still did it hahah!) Btw, if you don't know how to do a particular question, just ask for help. When you get the solutions, make sure you know how to do it even at the back of your mind. For algebra, just memorise and master all the 7 laws of indices.

Well tbvh, I thought I wouldn't do well for maths at all. My Maths has always been weak, the bell curve for Maths has always been extremely high, and I screwed up my Maths paper 2 big time. I knew I lost 31 marks (I vividly remember because they uploaded the answers and I went home to count the marks I've lost. I even cried cuz I felt so devastated, helpless and I literally asked God, "what can I do now?") So yeah, I told myself if I could get a C5, I would be extremely satisfied. But no, I was blessed with a B3. Really thank God for it. :')

3) Chinese/Mandarin

Do your ten-year series or know means know, don't know means don't know. Idk how to study languages tbh. I can't help much in this since it was indeed a miracle I was able to attain a B3 because I honestly felt that I was gonna get a C5. Why? I've never once studied Chinese in my life. I only studied the day before my Chinese O levels. 

I skipped school and went to a nearby library to do my brand new and untouched ten-year series. I spent more than 10 hours in the library doing my TYS and did ALL the MCQs. And you know what? After finishing my O level MT paper, they released the answers for the MCQ, and lo and behold, I got a 2/10.

Amen, I was speechless. I then went to sakae sushi to eat my sorrows away.

Nvm leh, in my compo, I wanted to write a story about how my dad was a gangster, smoked, and had lots of tattoos and I was like, "eh shit what is tattoo in Chinese ah?" In addition, the compo asked about my FAMILY, but I only wrote about my dad's heroic actions. So yeah screw my compo, I screwed it up big time.

I think how I managed to attain a B3 for my MT was due to my oral and listening comprehension. I got a distinction so I guess that helped me significantly. Actually right, if you know me personally, you'd be extremely surprised that such a person like me could attain a B3 really. Chinese oral DISTINCTION?! REALLY?!

Cuz I can't speak Mandarin very well like the pronunciation always got problem one HAHAH! Furthermore, I don't speak Mandarin at home and aiya my Mandarin seriously like shit one lah end of story hahah!

My friends thought I merely got a pass for my oral but when they saw and realised I got a distinction, they kept saying I bribed the examiners....... 

So yah, this is how bad my spoken Mandarin is not kidding. I also don't know how I can get a distinction for my oral LOL must be talented HAHAHAHAH JKJK! So yup, just speak up for oral okay, you can't speak well also fine one cuz if I can, you confirm can one LAH!!!!!!! XD

4) Science (Combine Physics/Chemistry)

Physics is quite straightforward, just memorise ALL the formulas and apply them can already. But of course don't only memorise, KNOW how to use them. In every question you do with more than 1 mark each, write down the formula. Each correct formula carries 1 mark okie, so it's quite important!!!! My physics paper was a joke. I was smart enough to write down all the formulas in every question but sadly, most of my answers were wrong MEH. But whatever, I still can get 1 mark for every question with more than 1 mark each yoz! >:D

Chemistry is all about memorising. Just read your textbook and practise your TYS can already hahahah! If you can, try to learn how to balance equations and master the mole concept. They will come out every year without fail. 

Well tbh, up till today I can't balance any equation and I still have no clue about what the mole concept is all about. My chemistry paper had like 5 balancing equations and I had 0 correct HAHAH! Worse still, they carry 2 marks each. And all I know about the mole concept is, "Mols = Mass/molar mass" HAHAH! They carry quite a lot of marks and they will 100% come out during your O levels. Thank God for mine, I could choose which question to do and of course, I did not do the Mole question lah like eew no way man please hahahah!

5) Humanities (Combine History/Social studies)

Initially, my humanities subject was actually my best subject. But idk why this time, it became my worst subject hahahah! I think it's cuz I very very very suey (unlucky). 

For my history essay right, I memorised EVERYTHING except the Japan war. End up Japan war came out along with the cold war, but because the cold war specified the years we must answer, I gave up since I didn't memorise the years so I did Japan war instead even though I did not even study a single shit about it. I relied on my sec 3 knowledge LOL and of cuz, I screwed up the essay big time! 

*I only know this after I was done with my exam, my friends told me that their teacher said every year without fail Japan sure will come out, so must study okie!!!!! *不怕一万，只怕万一* which means better safe than sorry. 

End up? HOHOHO NONE OF THEM CAME UP HAHAHAHAH SHIT. VENICE CAME UP THOUGH HA HA HA HA HA LIFE IS GREAT. I did diplomacy and deterrence in the end (I don't even know what I don't know) and I knew I screwed it up flawlessly just like my history essay. 

So me attaining a C5 is considered not bad already cuz I thought attaining a C6 would be more than enough for me. XD

7) POA (Principal of accounts)

Wah my results for this subject have always literally been like a roller coaster. Sometimes good, sometimes like shit one sia HAHAHAH! You know the day before my POA exam, I had the best POA student to teach me, and his aim was to help me get a distinction. But in the midst of teaching me, he was like, "if you can get a B4, I will be very very happy" HAHAHAH DAMN MEAN LOR WAHLAO! 

But really, I had to admit that I was like a total beginner when he was going through everything with me and I felt like I had no hope, just flunk it lah hahahah!

However, POA that year was the easiest subject for me. It was so simple I thought to myself, "bell curve confirm screwed up big time" and I was right. Even the guy who was top in POA, attained a B3 too LOLOLOL OMG SIA I AM STANDING ON THE SAME LEVEL AS THE TOP IN POA HAHAHAHAHAHAH THIS IS TOO FARH NEE LOL! XD

I managed to balance all the questions and I could do every single question (except for some theories lah hahah! :p). I really can't give much of a tip about POA because up till today, I only know how to do but I don't understand. SERIOUS LOL! Just memorise and keep practising. I think the most important topic in POA is final accounts. I love doing final accounts because the feeling of balancing my equations just feels so great.

Imagine having to do the entire final accounts including appropriation account, (Trading, profit and loss account, current account, before doing the finale which is balance sheet) Wah totally death sia, ONE WRONG, ALL WRONG LOL! So yup, just try your best okay!!!!! :-)

So yup that's it!!!!

I really hope my blogpost does serve as a motivation for you!!!! >< You can do it one, just believe in yourself!!! Even if you think you can't make it, there's always DPA/JPSAE/GO TO THE SCHOOL AND INTERVIEW and always remember miracles do exist because there's a bell curve (depends on luck though) and miracles do happen sometimes hahahah! Aiya don't scared, can one. If I can, you also can!!! Just do it once and for all with no regrets! :-)

And lastly................

I GOT INTO THE COURSE I WANTED OMG FINALLY MY HARD WORK HAS BEEN PAID OFF AND I CAN SAVOUR THE ENDING MOMENTS NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!! XDXDXD

If someone like me who comes from a neighbourhood school, has failed her CCA, has no higher mother tongue, didn't DPA, and not academically smart, can achieve what she wanted from the very beginning, I'm pretty sure you can do it too!!!!!!! If you know me personally, I'm sure you'd also be like, "wahlao, if Gillian can, surely the rest, can one lor!" STEADY HAHAHAH! XD

If you need someone there to talk to, confide in or have any problems, feel free to ask or talk to me okie!!! (except for any sexual questions which I won't bother to entertain ^__^) You can contact me at gillianyhs@gmail.com. I'll try to help you as much as possible, as long as it is within my capabilities!!!! :-)

And yes, do hear this song called, "what faith can do" by lukless! This song motivates me a lot. The lyrics are really powerful and meaningful!!!!

Everybody falls sometimes

Gotta find the strength to rise

From the ashes

And make a new beginning

Anyone can feel the ache

You think it's more than you can take

But you're stronger

Stronger than you know

Don't you give up now

The sun will soon be shining

You gotta face the clouds

To find the silver lining

I've seen dreams that move the mountains

Hope that doesn't ever end

Even when the sky is falling

I've seen miracles just happen

Silent prayers get answered

Broken hearts become brand new

That's what faith can do

It doesn't matter what you've heard

Impossible is not a word

It's just a reason

For someone not to try

Everybody's scared to death

When they decide to take that step

Out on the water

It'll be alright

Life is so much more

Than what your eyes are seeing

You will find your way

If you keep believing

I've seen dreams that move the mountains

Hope that doesn't ever end

Even when the sky is falling

I've seen miracles just happen

Silent prayers get answered

Broken hearts become brand new

That's what faith can do

Overcome the odds

You don't have a chance

(That's what faith can do)

When the world says you can't

It'll tell you that you can

I've seen dreams that move the mountains

Hope that doesn't ever end

Even when the sky is falling

And I've seen miracles just happen

Silent prayers get answered

Broken hearts become brand new

That's what faith can do

That's what faith can do

Even if you fall sometimes

You will have the strength to rise

Have faith in yourself, that is most essential!!!! :-) 

God is really good, and I believe he does wonderful things. I am truly blessed and highly favoured. Really, praise the Lord. All I have right now is all thanks to Him.

I wish all of you the best of luck!!! O(^__~)O *Jiayou, fighting, gambatte!!!!!!*

Signing off,

Gillian :-)

This gift below is the most special one and the best I've ever had.

Next! Gifts from my cell group!!! ^__~ <3 Thank you W567 for these gifts! I love you guys so much!!! :') I hope that we'd grow closer, get to know one another more and of course grow together in the house of God. I'm so thankful for City Harvest Church because this is where I found my 2nd home where I feel belonged to, and this is where I find my friends who're like a family to me. Thank God for allowing me to meet all of you. :-) Love y'all so so sooooo much!!!!  

SUCH A  B E A U T I F U L  CARD MADE BY VIVIAN!!!!!!! <3 <3 <3 ^___~ Wah steady sia cover photo put such a glamourous photo of me, I can't even. Tears of JOY sia vivian!!!!!!!! (P.s. It's my old passport photo and that was when I was 8 years old LOL #whatpubertydidtome. Oh and yes, back then I was in turf club no joke HAHAHAHAH XD)

A candid shot from vivian too and she thinks it's nice so here you have it! Thank you ah vivian, you wait only!!! >:)

Strawberry cake!!! ^__^ (Really feel so fortunate to be blessed with sooo many cakes at one go. Ptl!!! ^__^)

An envelope clutch from dearest Vivian! Thank you so much for this pretty clutch!!!!!!!! Love it so much! ^__^ <3

Present from the entire cell group!!! :D

Chocolate from dearest Shiting! Thank you sweetie, I love it heheh! ^__~ <3

My 2nd home and family.  :') Not everyone's here though!!! :(

A group of us wanted to take the trams while another group wanted to walk. If you know me, you should know which one I'll take. >:) 

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OFCUZ THE TRAMS DUH HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!! XD 

Blahblahblah, from here I'll just let the photos tell the story okie!!!!

Rachel's and my favourite dessert! <3 Boonyong kept complaining she doesn't eat all these, it was too expensive, blahblahblah, okay hush baby hush.